Morning, April 12, edited from Spurgeon’s Morning and Evening
“My heart is like wax; it is melted within me.” — Psalm 22:14
Our holy Lord experienced a terrible sinking and melting of soul. “The spirit of a man can endure his sickness, but as for a broken spirit who can bear it?” Deep depression of spirit is the most grievous of all trials; everything else besides is as nothing. The suffering Savior might well cry to his God, “Be not far from me,” for above all other seasons a man needs his God when his heart is melted within him because of heaviness. Believer, come near the cross this morning, and humbly adore the King of glory as having once been brought far lower, in mental distress and inward anguish, than any one among us; and mark his fitness to become a faithful High Priest, who can be touched with sympathy for our infirmities.
Especially let those of us whose sadness springs directly from the withdrawal of a present sense of our Father’s love, enter into near and intimate communion with Jesus. Let us not give way to despair, since through this dark room the Master has passed before us. Our souls may sometimes long and faint, and thirst even to the point of anguish, to behold the light of the Lord’s countenance: at such times let us stay ourselves with the sweet fact of the sympathy of our great High Priest. Our drops of sorrow may well be forgotten in the ocean of his grief; but how high ought our love rise! Come in, O strong and deep love of Jesus, like the flooding sea in spring tides; cover all my abilities, drown all my sins, wash out all my cares, lift my earth-bound soul, and float it right up to my Lord’s feet. There let me lie, a poor broken shell, washed up by his love, having no virtue or value; and only venturing to whisper to him that if he will put his ear to me, he will hear within my heart faint echoes of the vast waves of his own love which have brought me where it is my delight to lie, even at his feet forever.